Tuesday, April 27, 2010

ci-tech and I


I am writing this because I was recently reminded by my roommate that writing is inherently self-serving.

I recently resigned from my job. I have waited two years to legally get myself out of a ryhtmic pattern of going to the office, doing the same things most of the time. I maintained an incessant longing for my last day in the office when i would imagine the air in Eastwood City to smell a personal scent of relief, far from the convoluted revolution of fragrances in the Perfume Section of Shangri-la Mall. Unfortunately, when i stepped out of the office for the last time in April 23, Eastwood City didn't smell any different.

I felt a sense of numbness that I considered probing into my intentions. Perhaps, the swell of emotion that stemmed from my dear grandfather's unexpected passing preceded what should have been a euphoric day of freedom from a routinary quality assurance work. I still position my nose to unimaginable angles in an attempt to inhale that distinct air up to this day.

I will be leaving for Mindanao this coming Friday. The air that will greet me there would entirely smell different, definitely. And i hope I would not be positioning my nose to unimaginable angles then; lest I fail in positioning my heart to discern all the blessings I received during my two years of stay in ci-tech.

I will begin this last paragraph with another 'I'. I am writing this because I was reminded by my roommate that writing is, afterall, inherently self-serving.

6 comments:

Sonny said...

Hei for good ka na ba sa Mindanao ;D

-Sonny

jaydee said...

Hei, sonny! Hindi ah, at most na siguro yung three weeks. :p

chelbaliber said...

hei baby. =)

jaydee said...

ei ate michelle!

tatiablogs said...

finally read it! :)
didn't you feel nostalgic when you returned to ci-tech to get your final pay? I felt kind of nostalgic. haha. naiyak nga ako eh. haha. :p

jaydee said...

I felt nostalgic, tatia, but not to the extent of crying. Hapon na kasi yun, so wala ng time for emote emote. hehe!